The Resurrection

Hi, Universe! Wow, it's been a very long time since the last time i wrote here! I've never meant to leave you :' it's said that my last post was written on June 2015. I can see molds and spider webs everywhere :'

Actually there was so many important moments that I haven't told you. But, see, wherever I go, how far I could've gone, I always go back to you :)

During that time - June 2015-November 2016, there were so much things going on. Because I felt writing here is a very time-consuming activity, I deferred all the things I wanted to write. It turns out I regretted it. Why? Because I lost my writing systematics that I normally use everytime I write. I'm so lost of words, even I lost my ideas (this is so depressing). The next silly question is, why I still write and publish this one?

I don't know the right reason.

Perhaps it's because of the last thursday when I met an old friend. He asked me, "Masih nulis gak, Del?". I just realized that, yeah, it such a long time since the last time I did though. The proverb is true -- "If you sharpen your mind too much, it turns blunt".

Helloooo? Sharpen your mind too much?!? Sorry for that phrase, LOL. However, after a lot of works in my final assignment (yash, I've graduated last month :D) and those damn mental breakdowns, I intended to take things slowly, like - I don't want to break my brain because I think she was exhausted and a little bit overtired. I think I've become blunt now anyway (?)

After that, yesterday, I called Dhila - my why-you-are-so-far-from-here bff - and as well as our recent talks, we agreed that in our quarter-life-crisis-phase, we shouldn't ever defer doing our hobby. She said, "oh, Del, dammit, we should do it. Just do it and do not ever care of what people will say, do not ever compare with what people are doing." When I got back here, I felt that "oh-why-my-brain-can-be-this-stiff" and "i-know-now-how-stress-can-kill-my-mind-this-hard"!

So, maybe, this random post would help me reopen my mind to "see the world" again. I realized something too, that - whatsoever - I hid too much feelings in myself and I express what's in my mind in a writing better than any other way. I'm introverted in giving words by talking, but extroverted while writing.

After all, thank you for you people who wants to give away your minutes to read this: a post by an unstable twenties girl :') (And, sorry for the bad grammar!)

So, welcome me, folks! I'll definitely see you soon. Bye!